I came on it
in two ways. The first occurred last Sunday, when I was coaching a student on a
poem by a poet unknown to me: Jane Kenyon. Paradoxically, the poem is called
Happiness:
There’s just no accounting for happiness,
or the way it turns up like a prodigal
who comes back to the dust at your feet
having squandered a fortune far away.
And how can you not forgive?
You make a feast in honor of what
was lost, and take from its place the finest
garment, which you saved for an occasion
you could not imagine, and you weep night and day
to know that you were not abandoned,
that happiness saved its most extreme form
for you alone.
No, happiness is the uncle you never
knew about, who flies a single-engine plane
onto the grassy landing strip, hitchhikes
into town, and inquires at every door
until he finds you asleep midafternoon
as you so often are during the unmerciful
hours of your despair.
It comes to the monk in his cell.
It comes to the woman sweeping the street
with a birch broom, to the child
whose mother has passed out from drink.
It comes to the lover, to the dog chewing
a sock, to the pusher, to the basketmaker,
and to the clerk stacking cans of carrots
in the night.
It even comes to the boulder
in the perpetual shade of pine barrens,
to rain falling on the open sea,
to the wineglass, weary of holding wine.
Well, it was that image, that “wineglass, weary of
holding wine,” that stuck in my mind. So much so, that it wasn’t the name of
the poet but her image of the wineglass that allowed me to track Kenyon down.
And if Kenyon knew about happiness, it was hardly the
neighbor who dropped every morning for coffee, gossip, and laughter. For
Kenyon, happiness was the ghost she saw slipping into an abandoned house at
dusk.
How depressed was she? Well, consider a famous poem: Having
it Out with Melancholy. The first stanza clues you in pretty quickly:
When I was born,
you waited behind a pile of linen in the nursery,
and when we were alone, you lay down
on top of me, pressing
the bile of desolation into every pore.
Kenyon, born in Ann Arbor but living in New Hampshire,
died early at age 47 from leukemia. But the question troubling my afternoon
today is whether she also suffered from the Sylvia Plath effect.
The idea goes back to Aristotle, if not before, but got
named in 2001 by James
C. Kaufman; Wikipedia has this to
say about it:
Kaufman's work further demonstrated that
female poets were more likely to suffer from mental illness than any other
class of writers. In addition, female poets were more likely to be mentally ill
than other eminent women, such as politicians, actresses, and artists.
Well, looking at the 20th century, it’s not
hard to see that there were seriously troubled women out there, often writing
extraordinary poetry. Besides Plath, there was Anne Sexton, Sara Teasdale, and not so
much a raft as a cruise ship of others.
Writing, in fact, is on the list of the ten most
depression-prone professions. But it seems that female poets outstrip all
others for being nuts. Why?
Well, unless you have the fortune to be born with…well, a
fortune, poetry is a pretty awful profession. And what happens if you don’t
particularly want or like to teach?
You’re also digging, digging into some of the messiest
terrain around—your own psyche. Worse, there’s the terrible fact that there is
all too often an inverse relationship between a poem’s intrinsic worth and its
financial worth. Which is to say that bad poetry sells.
Then there’s not much support out there for being a poet.
Novels are sexy, everybody venerates a Hemingway or Steinbeck. But a poet,
who has produced a slim little book of sixty poems or so—the fruit of two years
of sitting alone with her thoughts and feelings? It sort of pales next to a
600-page novel.
Right—so now we get to chicken and egg: does the poetry
create the madness, or do crazy people decide to become poets? Well, the age-old
question has now been solved, and by a Harvard man no less. Here, from the American
Psychological Association, is what the authors have to
say:
There isn't a link between mental illness and
the actual process of creating, says psychiatrist Albert Rothenberg, MD, of
Harvard Medical School, who has studied Nobel laureates, Pulitzer Prize winners
and other highly creative individuals. Rather, he argues that mental illnesses
such as anxiety, thought disorder and depression disrupt the cognitive and
emotional processes necessary for successful creativity.
I agree—but there’s something that has to be
acknowledged: it may be that the depression of creative people is distinct from
the depression of the rest of us. Business people, plumbers, doctors have some
external yardstick against which they can measure themselves. But creative
people—and especially artists and poets—have no such thing. The question, “am I
any good?” awaits by the bedside in the morning, perches on the shoulder for
the rest of the day, sours your morning coffee, and stalks you, side by side,
throughout the day.
It was the hardest thing I ever had to do in my life—resolve
the issue with the cello, that had led to self-inflicted bites on my arms, and
three or four spectacular choked auditions. In the space of two or three weeks,
I went through madness and came out the other end.
Two or three weeks?
Sorry—a lifetime….