Showing posts with label Goldberg Variations. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Goldberg Variations. Show all posts

Thursday, June 27, 2013

Variations on Infinity

“Bach for when I need to understand, Beethoven when I need courage,” said Susan, or words to that effect. So what am I listening to, just now?
Bach—Goldberg Variations, as arranged for string trio.
Right, so now you get the picture. A major victory for LGBT has left me feeling less than elated; now it’s time to get back to an emotional even keel. It’s time to get over the rant and the rage, and there’s nothing better than Bach for that.
OK, this work comes with a story that may or not be true. Goldberg was a musician in the electoral court of the Saxony, employed by the Russian ambassador, Count Keyserlingk. And the count, so goes the story, couldn’t sleep. So Bach was pressed into service; could he write some nice soporific music that Goldberg could play to lull him to sleep? 
Bach decided to write a set of thirty variations on a theme, an aria which is a sarabande, an old dance form that Bach would also use in the cello suites. And the count, so the story runs, was delighted—so much that he gave Bach a gold goblet filled with 100 louis-d’or.
Well, the story was written some sixty years after the work was published, Bach was long dead, and face it—it has that Washington-chopping-down-the-cherry-tree feeling. As well, I’m always a little skeptical about stories that have louis-d’or in them… 
Most of Bach’s works went unpublished in his lifetime; the Goldberg Variations, published in 1741, were an exception. And it’s our good luck to have 19 of the first editions still in existence—one of which has corrections in Bach’s own hand. Oh, and also a set of fourteen canons.
Well, I was familiar with the work—I walked for months to the beach while listening to it in those raw days when I had lost my mind and my job (in order of importance if not chronology). But what I didn’t know is that there is an internal structure, though I sensed it. Every third variation is a canon, which means that one instrument is playing the same thing slightly later (think “row, row, row your boat…”). After the canon, Bach wrote what Wikipedia calls a genre piece—baroque dances, a couple of aria, a fughetta. After the genre piece comes what one musician calls an arabesque—a fast, lively piece with the left or right hand crossing over the other.
There are also variations that are heart-wrenchingly poignant, including one which Wanda Landowska termed “The black pearl.” They are almost too painful to listen to; Bach has ripped his chest open, the ribs are bloody and broken, the fist-sized heart is clenching and unclenching amid the blood and cartilage. You want not to look, but you have to. It’s agonizing music to hear.
But one day I did, and here’s what I wrote:
So each morning I walked to the beach listening to the Goldberg Variations. And then, after a week of turmoil, I walked by the walls of the old city to the mouth of the harbor, and confronted the open sea. 
And heard the music you’ll hear below.
And said, finally, goodbye to Franny.
Who’s gone, and who isn’t.
I was crying, I was shaking, I was wracked with gratitude for a woman who had given me life. And I was amazed that she had placed her own life in my hands, and entrusted me with her death.
She had all the nobility of all her dogs and cats for whom she had done them same.
“You can go now,” I said. “I’m OK now.”
And I was.
“There’s some music that never really stops, that just goes on and on forever, on some other plane,” a cello teacher once said about the worst piece of music Bach ever wrote, the prelude to the first cello suite. I didn’t believe it about the prelude, but about the Goldberg Variations?
Totally.






Wednesday, August 22, 2012

Stormy Weather

Well, well, we’re in full storm silliness.
A tropical storm, expected to become a category 1 hurricane, is going to pass 58 miles to the south of Ponce, the second largest city on the island, at 2 AM tomorrow. 
First question. Where did this number—58 miles—come from? How does anyone know? How can anyone predict?
Second question. What to do? Well, in the past I went crazy. Or rather, I joined the craziness. Even as I write, there is a run on gas stations. People are lining up—or rather their cars are. Fights are erupting. The social networks are going crazy. The Aguadilla Shell station has run out of gas!
Walmart, of course, will have activated its emergency plan. The buyers will be frantically calling suppliers, who are supposed to have sufficient supplies of crucial items.
Salchichas!
That’s little chicken sausages to you. Yup, they’re utterly necessary in an emergency. People consume ‘em like crazy. And yes, people fight for them in the stores.
It’s not pretty. Two little old ladies whom you’ve seen and chatted with over the past year? Those sweet dears who call you m’ijo and wear little pins of pope Benedict?
They’re attacking each other with their canes!
No, I’m not exaggerating.
Well, those chicken sausages are important. But guess what really gets the crowd boiling?
Ice!
After Hurricane Georges, there were numerous reports of armed robbery. No, not for money. For ice….
The governor, stung badly by the defeat of his referenda, is milking the situation. As I write, the sun is shining brightly, a gentle wind is blowing, the banana kwit (called the reinita, or little queen) is flirting with the cat. It hops on the branches of the dead bougainvillea just out of reach of Loquito, and skips away when he lunges.
In short, all is normal.
The government, however, has completely shut down.
Ah, one thinks, how can they tell?
We are urged to take all possible precautions to safeguard life and property. The refugios are being set up.
Well, the little old ladies are fighting over those salchichas, but the guys?
They’re going for the beer!   
And me?
Well, I took my morning trot as always, and decided no. I’m not doing this storm. Rather, I’ve done it. I’ve weathered more in the last two years than I had for decades of my life previously.
And in March of this year, I weathered the hardest storm—harder than Franny, harder than Walmart. 
I took on myself.
Touch and go, there. For a week, I battled all the fear, all the insecurity, and the accumulated self-defeat and doubt. Was I any good? Could I write? Was I worth it?
“Bach when I need clarity, Beethoven when I need courage,” wrote Susan, or some such words. So each morning I walked to the beach listening to the Goldberg Variations. And then, after a week of turmoil, I walked by the walls of the old city to the mouth of the harbor, and confronted the open sea. 
And heard the music you’ll hear below.
And said, finally, goodbye to Franny.
Who’s gone, and who isn’t.
I was crying, I was shaking, I was wracked with gratitude for a woman who had given me life. And I was amazed that she had placed her own life in my hands, and entrusted me with her death.
She had all the nobility of all her dogs and cats for whom she had done them same.
“You can go now,” I said. “I’m OK now.”
And I was.
I came home, turned on the computer, wrote a post. Cleaned the house, did some wash, played some Sudoku.
Six o’clock, slam of the gate, steps on the hall. Raf!
“How was your day,” he asked.
“Great!”
And it was….