Oh...and about God

Or the teapot, which is the best I can do.

 

You all remember good old Bertrand Russell, who went running around in the first half of the 20^th century smoking his pipe, being a Lord (OK—an earl / Earl, which is worse), writing the most important book on mathematics of the century, and generally being insufferably right.

 

 

Of course he was right—he was smarter than the rest of us.

 

Well, he also wrote a book entitled, Why I Am Not a Christian, which may make him not-so-insufferably-right in your eyes. It may make him only insufferable.

 

Right or wrong, he gave us a teapot—not much from an English earl, you might sniff, but there are a lot of us. And the rich don’t get rich (and certainly don’t stay rich) by giving that money (or the ancestral lands, or even a few sheep skins for the spines of my books) away.

 

So Russell left us only the damn teapot, but that said, I have learned to love it. I am, in fact, resigned to heaven…so much so, that I’ll proselytize.

 

Lord Russell (the earl, not the lord—which is confusing to simple types like me), much like little Marc, set himself to deal with the problem of religion. But did he fiddle and faddle, running from a theistic deity at 10 AM and settling into nihilism by noon? No, he plowed ahead, relentlessly using logic to settle the vexing issue of the vexing Master of the Universe.

 

Bless him, he was honest, as well as atheistic. 

 

Ooops—sorry, he wasn’t an atheist.

 

He can’t be. He has faithfully examined all the evidence for the existence of God, and concluded that that evidence is faulty. He can assert, with utter logic, that there is no reason to believe in god (capital omitted, since why bother?)

 

He can’t believe in God (damn, habits…) but he wasn’t an Atheist (justice!). 

 

He cannot prove that there is no God.

 

Enter….

 

 

Suppose that little Marc gets it into his head that a teapot is orbiting the moon. Granted, given the amount of junk we have thrust into outer space, there may extremely well be a teapot (as well as a lot of Tang wrappers) up there. But not the teapot above.

 

In the world, this sacred vessel contained only the libation of (English) life—tea. It served its purpose whilst on this mortal veil, but in the rarified atmosphere of the moon, its essential nature was revealed. The teapot contains the meaning of life, it pours both love AND justice generously from its spout. All time and all history dwell within its translucent, thin walls. The wisdom of the ancients, the joy of a toddler—it has all the emotions we can know, and some we must never know. Poets and law professors abide within, as do we all, in perfect amity, indeed love.

 

The Teapot (reverentially capitalized) is God.

 

I know.

 

I am little Marc, and can you prove I’m wrong?

 

HAH!

 

Well, you may be scoffing over there in the corner with Lord Russell, but neither one of you can prove that there is no 1851 Spode (think it was) teapot with sacred qualifications up there orbiting the moon. 

 

There is, of course, a little problem (which there wouldn’t be, if I could just live in that damn teapot).

 

I gotta prove the teapot—with all the wonders it contains—is really up there.

 

This is called “the burden of proof….”

 

Fortunately, I have the answer.

 

(I don’t, but I think I do, and that’s all that matters….)

 

As I dimly remember it, nobody can tell us exactly what was going on before the big bang (nah, Big Bang) blasted us all into this wretched state of affairs. True, the physicists may have been using their time in the last half century to do something other than daytime drinking…so maybe they have settled the ultimate question, but that’s no concern of mine.

 

I have my teapot.

 

Because whatever caused the Big Bang created both the physical world that we can see and that the good scientists (no irony here!) can beautifully explain but…

 

…the realm of the spirit as well.

 

Which dwells within the you-know-what.

 

That takes care of the little problem of my sister Jeanne, who professes no belief in God / Teapot, but did tell me that the love she has for Tyler, her son / my nephew, will never die.

 

The TP (and no, that’s not toilet paper….), of course.

 

She was basting the Thanksgiving turkey at the time, and so busy that I immediately believed her. 

 

It also takes care of the problem of little Marc, since really, did my addled brains get me sober? Or did it lead to that daytime drinking in the first place?

 

I love the teapot!

 

I address myself to the teapot, generally by speaking out loud to God (I drop the teapot nonsense when it gets serious). God speaks to me through a sol trunco, which is “a broken sun” in English, and also that architectural device through which light and air enter the room above a doorway. I showed you a teapot, so here is a sol trunco….

 

 Only now am I contemplating the phrase a couple of paragraphs back: an “architectural device through which light and air enter the room above a doorway.” A poet, which I am not, could run with the image of light and air which have been used as images for God / Teapots since we dreamed up the concept. Living in the sunlight of the spirit, I am a feather on the breath of God.

Sunlight…

 

Breath…

 

Illuminating the door—mystery, through which we may not pass.

 

And cannot help but do so.

 

Oh dear…

 

“What is the meaning of all this,” I demand of God / Teapot / Sol Trunco!

 

They’re all smarter than me, which means that they don’t speak. They know better than to try to argue with me. I’ll win that one.

 

(I won’t, of course, but I’ll sure think I will, since I am Lord Russell’s spiritual if not legal—dammit—heir).

 

They’ll turn on YouTube, and play me the tune that at last resigned me to heaven.

 

Tea, anyone?

 

 

 

 

 

   

 

  

Final Wrap

It didn’t matter in the end whether I was there because of my free will or not. It didn’t matter whether God was anxiously hovering over me and fretting over what my next idiotic move would be. It didn’t matter that getting there meant moving through sauna heat when all I wanted was to nap in an air-conditioned room.

 

I went to the beach, and that was all that mattered.

 

At 69, I am mechanistic. Questions starting with “why” seem pointless. Things like, “well, what am I supposed to do now,” seem more pertinent. I know that I will close down for the holidays—or rather, that I will be closed. I will feel exhausted and that I have done nothing. 

 

I accept that I’ve done something. In a weird way, my apprenticeship as a bookbinder seems over. God knows whether I have put in the full 10,000 hours that is supposed to be needed to master a craft. That’s five years of 40-hour weeks—and my journey hasn’t been measured by the clock but by the notebooks that piled up and continue to pile up.

 

An average year has 250 work days—and have I made 1250 notebooks in the last half a decade? I think so, and yes, they have gotten better. Not as good as I want them, but better. I’ve made all the mistakes a beginner can make.

 

And God knows I’ve written. The idea behind all these posts is that as book will emerge, like a monarch butterfly emerging from the chrysalis, or whatever it is. It will be there lying on the grass, that book of mine, with the dew of creation still on its literary wings. We’ll stand in awe as it soars into the blue sky towards the sun.

 

What I have instead looks like a teenager’s bedroom. In August I put together all of the blog posts I had written sine the beginning of Trump’s reign of terror—and got a 250-page assemblage of rants. I was going to read it, proof it, discard the always-present chaff and get it ready for the last lap.

 

I couldn’t bear to open it.

 

Worse, I’ve written as much in the last three months and I had in the first nine months of the year. So I now will have a manuscript of 600 or 700 hundred pages. A lot of writing is going to hit the floor.

 

The premise was simple—explain what the hell had happened to the country on my watch. Henry Herrick of Salem—the dude who hung the witches because he fell prey to the same devil that he imagined afflicted the witches. How to explain Trump to him? Nicholas Coleman Pickard—the guy who went to Libby Prison in Virginia to identify and carry home his erysipelas-stricken son, and who “abandoned” his family a few years (and one son) later. He was off to find that gold, and ended up dying decades later at his daughter’s house in Kansas.

 

Pickard was smarter than Herrick, who left a faltering explanation of his actions. For no reason I can justify, I think Herrick experienced terror, but Pickard suffered a sort of existential fatigue.

 

They were insufferable but strangely admirable, those damn Pilgrims. They couldn’t live with even the Dutch—who to this day are some of the world’s coolest characters. The pilgrims were total pains in the ass, but they had courage, which was in fact madness except that they got away with it. They decimated the native population. They created a theocracy that we still are fighting to get rid of. They were devout people who went mad because of their religion, yes. But they persevered, and they left a heritage of constant work, constant self-examination to the point of condemnation, and constant striving for improvement. 

 

I know nothing of Herrick, beyond the simple facts the Internet can dredge up. We had, of course, missed the boat the first time around—so Herrick never went through the initial first winter, which killed half of the population, by some accounts. But anyone can feel the isolation that the Pilgrims experienced—starving, far from home, experiencing an unimaginable winter. Herrick—did he look into the dark green forest as we do, a place of beauty and rest? Or did it harbor evil, malice? Whatever tenuous peace the Pilgrims would cobble together with the Indians in the first years would soon fall apart. I suspect Herrick would have been the first to tell you that the Indians were not just savages but perhaps not even people. They may have been tools of the devil for him, and he may have been proud of despising them.

 

But he was there, damn him, and whatever we are now is down in part to him and his comrades. The Mayflower Compact—is anyone still teaching it? If so, are they teaching it the way they taught it to me? Because no one asked me to read the damn thing so much as to bow my head at the profound wisdom of the 41 men (sorry, all you wives and daughters) who had the courage to create the very foundation of our democracy. 

 

The Mayflower Compact was as sacred as the cherry tree that George Washington never cut, but never lied about either.

 

The Mayflower Compact turns out to be just this, if we can still trust Wikipedia:

 

IN THE NAME OF GOD, AMEN. We, whose names are underwritten, the Loyal Subjects of our dread Sovereign Lord King James, by the Grace of God, of Great Britain, France, and Ireland, King, Defender of the Faith, &c. Having undertaken for the Glory of God, and Advancement of the Christian Faith, and the Honour of our King and Country, a Voyage to plant the first Colony in the northern Parts of Virginia; Do by these Presents, solemnly and mutually, in the Presence of God and one another, covenant and combine ourselves together into a civil Body Politick, for our better Ordering and Preservation, and Furtherance of the Ends aforesaid: And by Virtue hereof do enact, constitute, and frame, such just and equal Laws, Ordinances, Acts, Constitutions, and Offices, from time to time, as shall be thought most meet and convenient for the general Good of the Colony; unto which we promise all due Submission and Obedience. IN WITNESS whereof we have hereunto subscribed our names at Cape-Cod the eleventh of November, in the Reign of our Sovereign Lord King James, of England, France, and Ireland, the eighteenth, and of Scotland the fifty-fourth, Anno Domini; 1620.

 

Would I have had the fortitude to uproot my entire life, get onto a creaky ship (that would soon meet a hurricane, if I remember correctly) with a bunch of other cranks who thought like me, sign a document pledging affiliation with them, and then experience a brutal winter surrounded by savages?

 

Probably not, but I’m glad he did.

 

Then there’s Pickard—an ancestor who’s behaving himself perfectly respectably until he gets it into his head to go look for that “gold.” I have my pet theory for HIM—but is it even fair to utter it? Didn’t the guy suffer enough?

 

We’re zero-sum on the subject of slavery, and we should be. “Yes, but…” doesn’t seem good enough when confronted with the horrors of slavery. From her writing, my grandmother paints her mother (and perhaps her grandmother as well) as a strong abolitionist. Remember all of that business of hosting Booker T. Washington?

 

The women of the 19^th century seem somehow to be carrying the ball on the great moral issues of the day: slavery, abolition, suffragettism and the vote for women. They were right, and the story of Lincoln meeting Harriet Beecher Stowe (he called her the little woman who had caused this great war) is probably untrue, factually speaking. 

 

I don’t think Pickard condoned slavery. I think he thought it evil, and the sooner it withered and died the better off we’d all be. But I’m not sure that he thought it was his problem, or his job to sacrifice the thing he loved (perhaps) the most. He gave his son to a cause that was blazing for his wife, but to which he felt lukewarm. He got stuck bringing the body home and burying it. Did my great-great grandmother revel in her martyrdom?  Did she make a little too much of the sacrifice she had made of her son, and did it drive a wedge between them?

 

I know nothing about my great-great grandmother, and oddly enough, I know just as little about my grandmother as I get older. But she had a curious pride in being American—she felt that we had done the sensible thing of leaving the old world with its kings and royalty and serfs and poverty. She was ardent in her belief about education, and the power of public schools to shape and mould citizens that could step to the plate and hit any ball thrown towards it. Her God was an Englishman who spoke The King James’ Bible (the idea of a Catholic having anything to do with God was impossible). We were the greatest country on earth because what else could we be?

 

It should have been jingoism, but it wasn’t. It required effort and maintenance—she read the newspaper every day of her life until the very end, because it was her responsibility. Her first words after surgery were about the Middle East peace deal—the Oslo Accords, as I remember. She believed in an informed electorate, and it was her duty to be part of it.

 

It was a matter of temperament almost more than principle. Other nations went mad and had their dictators and their wars and their persecutions of minorities and their perpetuation of injustices. We did not.

 

We were above all that.

 

It both stifled and elevated. She was a staunch Republican and didn’t think much of John F. Kennedy, but of course she agreed with his, “ask not what your country can do for you…” ideology. We had gotten it right, and it was our job to keep rubbing the world’s nose in it.

 

And because of that attitude, we often got it right.

 

She sent her own son off to war, and he came back, having taken care of the Nazis. He rebuilt his life and we rebuilt Germany.

 

That’s who we were.

 

Who are we now?

 

We have a profoundly corrupt man who has no concept of the traditions of being American that I remember. That corrupt man is now failing physically and mentally, but he has shown us that all our traditions hang by a thread. He baited us with fear and then hatred, and we took the bait. He sold us out to our bitterest enemy, and half of the population still loves him.

 

He has shown us who we are.

 

I no longer believe that my ancestors are up there in heaven, anxiously waiting for me to pass on and join their ranks. I no longer think that I will have to face Herrick and Pickard—I sure as hell hope not.

 

I could face the two men, I think, but not my grandmother. In her youth she had been well-off; in her widowhood she had worked the switchboard. She had given her son a pocket Bible when he went off to defeat the Nazis; she was amused when he returned and  confessed, of course, never to have opened it.

Riches and religion were important, yes, but never her north star. But she was American through and through. She went to the Holy Land and was jarred by the mountains, the rugged and hostile terrains. She was a child of the prairies.

 

She was American.

 

May she rest in peace.

 

 

 

 

 

  

Free Will?

So the question really is whether I have any say in the matter, or whether I am just stuck sitting in here in this admittedly pleasant little room. I could go out of here, I think, to this thing called a beach, which I am lucky to have. I could put myself on that beach and look out at a green-turning-to-blue sea and pass the day away. I could sleep on the beach, I could find friends on the beach, I might even find love on the beach, or the meaning of life.

 

I believe in free will, and I believe that I am captain of my own ship, steering it expertly through dangerous waters (like aisle 6 at Walgreen's, which has the wine and whiskey for you and the poison for me. The bottles and labels look the same, and the liquid inside smells and tastes the same, which makes it tricky, but there it is.)

 

 

I believe I have free will, but did I have free will when I was lying in bed, with the bottle of Scotch under that bed? I was no longer waking or falling asleep, I was passing out and the coming to. That bum you see sleeping outside Walgreen’s, or under bridges or on park benches?

 

I just considered taking a selfie of me raising my hand!

 

So I am one of the guys you pass each day, if you live in a city big enough to have a homeless population. And I am here to tell you, we do not have free will. I was lucky to be reaching for the bottle in a 4500-square-foot apartment, but my luck would have run out in a few years or perhaps months. Then, I would have been reaching for the bottle outside Walgreen’s. I would be that guy you pass by and give a buck to.

 

So I didn’t have free will then, and honestly I doubt I have it now. I got up at 6:30 and fed the cat and did the kitty litter and took my medicines and washed my face and got on my knees and told God that I wasn’t feeling at all grateful (just then) but I knew that I should be grateful and in fact would be grateful as soon as the cortisol released by my anxious dreams had faded away. I would be grateful after I had gotten five strangers to smile at me and say “Buenos días,” on my walk to the bus station.

 

I have that power, to get them to say “buenos días.”

 

But do I really have free will?

 

I do not, as you know, attend AA, though I do go every weekday morning to a clubhouse that does indeed have an AA meeting. If I attended that meeting, I would certainly never tell you, and indeed would lie about attending that meeting, as I am now doing.

 

I was thinking about all this during the meeting that I didn’t go to.

 

I sit or don’t sit in a room full of Christians, and I’m doing my best not to correct the errors of their ways, which are many. So I had to escape the meeting without someone shouting “fuck you” at me, and fortunately I thought myself out of that one. AA has this absurd belief that the group itself can become your god, but there can be a lot of truth in absurdity. If you don’t have free will and you are living on a flattened cardboard refrigerator box outside Walgreen’s, you’re better off coming into AA (to which you will never admit) and trying to give your “free will” to the group.

 

I think of Yolanda, a wonderful woman I met at my first meeting of AA (shit, guess the cat is out of the bag). Yolanda told me my story as she had lived it, which is unsurprising though unsettling. We drunks and addicts are all living the same story—the sets are different. Then Yolanda, after pouring out her tale of abusive partners, lost jobs and friends, homelessness, prostitution—you know, all the usual stuff—did something amazing, miraculous.

 

She smiled at the group, apologized for leaving early (she was meeting an important client to finalize a deal), took her purse, and excused herself. 

 

Leaving a faint smell of an expensive perfume as she passed me.

 

Leaving me to look at my shoes, which had no laces, since they had taken them away from me in rehab, and I wasn’t organized enough to find new ones and put them in.

 

I mean, shoe laces?

 

So it’s a really good idea to find a group with people like Yolanda, or on the way to becoming like Yolanda. It’s a really good idea to admit that you don’t have free will, and in fact you may never have had it. I look at the people in the meetings I (don’t) attend, and I hear their stories and their shame. Half of the people have families that have been submerged in alcohol for decades. The miracle would have been if they had NOT become drunks.

 

But they’re full of shame, and so am I.

 

“You grew up gay in a small Midwestern town in the 1960’s,” a guy in the program once told me, matter-of-factly.

 

Both of my brothers have also had issues with alcohol, which might suggest a genetic component as well.

 

Did I have free will?

 

Should I feel ashamed?

 

The question is unanswerable and dangerous, of course. What I should do is get up and go to a meeting, where people like Yolanda let me sit down next to her because she too has felt that no one in the world would ever want to sit next to her. No one in the world would like to speak to her. No one in the world gives a shit about her, and if they did, they’d hate her. That’s what she felt when she first came into the rooms, and she smiles at me because she remembers exactly how broken she was, and she knows perfectly well that that’s how I am feeling too.

 

She thinks all of that as she passes by me, holding her purse and wafting her perfume as she prepares to meet her big-shot client.

 

She smiles at me.

 

Remember Yolanda?

 

At any rate, there I was (or wasn’t) in the meeting full of people wearing gold crucifixes in the meeting, and I was just telling them that their whole moral world was based on the lie of free will. 

 

I was pissing on their religion, in fact.

 

So it was time for a little footwork, and I skirted (or punted?), by admitting that the group might be a really good alternative to the false idol that dwells in the green plastic bottle under my bed.  Guys like Ulysses, Achilles, and Odysseus are always talking about “the gods who rule these parts,” and my job was to get away from the god of the filthy bedroom and into the arms of the god who rules the rooms.

 

“The rooms”—our way of saying the program.

 

But that was too complicated, so I told the joke that we all know, and that always gets a begrudging laugh anyway.

 

“This program is pure BRAIN WASHING,” shouts a guy in a meeting.

 

“Well, seems to me like your brain could use a good washing,” says some salty bitch two rows back.

 

Then I told them that if we didn’t have free will when we were drinking—well, who was calling the shots?

 

We drunks may not be able to believe in God, but we know about demons.

 

So I told the guys with the crucifixes around their necks that I didn’t know where my free will (if any) was, but it was a better idea that I bring it (if possible) to here, where Yolanda sits sweetly perfumed before her meeting. It’s better to leave the demons behind, really, and come into a room where…

 

…and of course I couldn’t say it…

 

…where, I continued bravely into the void, you might well meet Yolanda and something that we often talk about, in these meetings…

 

…oh, so often talk about!

 

…a three-letter word

 

…sometimes capitalized

 

…beginning with “g”

 

The buzzer goes off, my four minutes is up, and I am free.

 

I don’t have to say that word. God lives, and has taken that burden from me.

 

The group laughed, and I got away with it. 

 

Leaving the question, of course…

 

…do I believe it?

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

     

 

 

 

 

Of Trump and Tea Towels

It happens every year, so why I am always so surprised by it? The Christmas “tree” is up on the plaza where I sit on benches and chat with the homeless. The tree is a metal cone some 25 feet high—this year it has footlong strings of light which are supposed to be icicles. 

 

Only in Puerto Rico could they be considered, or even imagined, to be icicles.

 

Well, we’re going to be merry, goddammit, even if it kills us. Or sends us to the poorhouse, since the consumerism seems excessive even for an American of the 21^st century. We are supposed to buy, and a little trip to Marshalls—a store that sells everything that you want (while in the store) but don’t need and won’t like (after a week or two). All of the merchandise is beautiful and cheap—but also exhausting.

 

I think of Little Women, that dear book written by that dear Louisa May Alcott, and please note that repetition of the tired word “dear.” I use it because Alcott, like William Morris, was a wonderfully neurotic, high-thinking, eccentric who had a considerably crazy life, though framed in Victorian conventionality.

 

Morris got tea-towelled, which meant that even though he was a socialist and believed in free marriage (or at least put up with his wife bonking Dante Gabriel Rosetti), his decorative work was charming (another word like “dear”) and could be put onto tea towels. Alcott got tea-towelled too, which meant that even though she was an intellectual, hung out with Emerson and Thoreau, created and lived in communes which attempted to be free-thinking and Utopian-seeking, nursed the sick in the Civil War, and wrote “lurid” works which pleased her more (and earned her some very-needed cash)…well, all she’s known for is dear Little Women. 

 

Here's a tea towel—which is the best we could do with William Morris’s life:

 

Fortunately, these tea towels come from the Radical Tea Towel company, who put Morris’s own words at the bottom of the towel, as ballast for the charm. I know nothing about the Radical Tea Towel company on purpose, since I really prefer to imagine them, not to know about them. In my imagination, they’re a group of oddballs who would make any character out of Alice in Wonderlandseem like an accountant. 

 

And here’s what Dante Gabriel Rosetti thought of Jane Morris, and it’s enough to send even me into a jealous panic—God knows what Morris thought. No man should paint another man’s wife….

 

 

 

Well, well—what a trivial mind I have on this Tuesday morning. I am worried about tea towels and Louisa May Alcott when I should be worried about Donald Trump, and his imminent invasion of Venezuela. 

Why are we invading Venezuela?

 

It’s both a stupid question and a necessary one. We’re invading Venezuela (as far as I can see) because Trump got slapped down, posthumously, by Jeffrey Epstein. There’s a big group of Trump supporters who bought into the theory that a small group of very rich men were preying on very young women (teenagers chronologically and pre-pubescent biologically). They got obsessed with Jeffrey Epstein, who was utterly despicable. They didn’t drop the bone after the election, which Trump thought they’d do, since they have a more permanent value system than he does. So he promised them that he would release the Epstein files in all their luridness (ah, if only dear Louisa you-know-who were here to write about it)…and did they forget about it, as they were supposed to do?

 

Nah—so the clamor got so bad (and the drip-drip of lurid emails grew so constant) that nobody could talk of anything else. Eventually, the shut-down (which was all about preventing the release of the files, since it allowed the Speaker of the House not to swear in a congresswoman from Arizona, who would be the final vote for a resolution for the release of the files) ended. The SNAP benefits were reinstated, so that the poor (about 12.5% of us) could eat again. So Trump saw the writing on the wall (neon is hard to miss), and came out and said that he was all for releasing the files, which had previously not existed and then had become a “Democratic hoax.”

 

The Republicans, who had shut down the government to avoid dealing with the issue, instantly caved and voted nearly unanimously to force the release of the files. (The one congressman voting against the release of the files was a guy from Louisiana who everybody agreed was nuts—even his constituents, who are nuts as well, and therefore have to be represented). 

 

Trump, by the way, is all over the files, as the FBI agents who worked 24 hour shifts to scrub the files (that didn’t exist) to the tune of over 800,000$ in five days last spring can attest. So now we’re a couple of weeks away from getting the files, which will be heavily redacted, to say the least. 

 

We’re in a freefall, logically and politically speaking, so Trump did what Trump does, which is divert. He’s killed over 80 people in scores of bombings of boats off the coast of Venezuela. He says the boats are filled with drugs, the Venezuelans say the boats are full of fish, and the Geneva Convention…

 

…well, you know what they say.

 

Trump is going to do what he has done all through his political career—manufacture an “emergency” and act illegally. His tariffs are built on emergencies, his seizure of innocent people and subsequent deportation to foreign prison camps, his decision to bomb Iran (six months ago) and his decision to invade Venezuela are based on the same flimsy pretext. And we are all following him, shouting “tsk-tsk” as we scramble to keep up with the limousine speeding Trump off to the bank. 

 

There is always a little money to be made, and Venezuela has more oil than Iran, or anybody else, for that matter. It would be a shame, not to get a little piece of that action.

 

This cannot be, my imagined reader from the 22d century will be saying. A president of the United States cannot really be acting like Nero, providing that fiddle music as Rome burns. 

 

This cannot be, you say, in horror.

 

I hope that there is some reader, in some century, who can say some words to express shock and horror. I hope shock and horror come back to us, somehow.

 

What I fear is indifference—a complacency that seeks nothing more than to shop at Marshalls. I fear ignorance as well—where is Venezuela, and why should I care?

 

I fear the death of truth even more. We’re already changing history (our textbooks now say stuff like, “although some abuses did occur, the majority of our black friends and neighbors lived peaceably with their masters on the majestic cotton plantations that graced the South”). Why bother with seeing reality at all? 

 

Aren’t we already tea-towelling Trump?