Monday, November 4, 2013

All Twitty

I’m beginning to feel what my mother must have meant when she said, towards the end of her life, that things were all twitty. Because today, I find myself absolutely unable to do anything—write, print labels, find anything to write about.
It may be the cat that got me into this mood. We’ve had Kitty for 16 years, ever since I heard him yowling on the top of a wheel on a parked car outside. OK—moral proximity: if a cat needs help outside your house, what can you do? So there we were, lying on our stomachs on the sidewalk, peering under the car. And there Kitty was, wisely deciding to retreat deep into the chassis of the car. After all, did he know who we were?
The solution was tuna fish, we realized, and it became clear: we were only going to get one chance; this was one smart cat. Fortunately, we lured him into the cage, and spirited him up to the apartment, where we put him into the one room that actually has a door, the guest bathroom.
The kitten at this point fit comfortably in Mr. Fernández’s hand—it was at that stage where the ears were seemingly bigger than the head. And speaking of the ears, there was a huge oil smear on the right ear; Mr. Fernández got to work on that the next day.
Which I found then, when I came upon Fernández sitting on the toilet, alternately drying and kissing Kitty. “I like this cat,” he crooned, and that was it. True, he was / is an orange cat, and none too beautiful. But that wasn’t the point; probably because of the vitamins we shoveled down him, he’s a truly intelligent cat.
(Sorry to disabuse you here, but most cats? Stupid as posts, despite their appearance….)
Smart enough, in fact, to break out of the guest bathroom after a few days. And how did he do it, since the door was still closed? By climbing up and then down an 8-foot louvered door—it was the only way.
So there he was, casually casing the place, completely unfazed be the three other adult cats who were tailing him. 
Over the years, it became obvious—this was Raf’s cat, not mine. Kitty sleeps by Raf at night, and stays sleeping on his pillow during the day. And at one point, Raf had a dream in which Kitty was talking to him.
“Kitty, you can talk!” exclaimed Raf.
“Of course I can talk,” said Kitty irritably. It was sort of an Alice and Wonderland moment….
Which last Monday was not. That’s when I took Kitty in to the vet, since he hadn’t been eating, and was looking lethargic. He knew, of course, what was coming the moment his saw the red carrying case; characteristically, he offered no complaint.
I knew, too, what was going to happen. I knew it the moment I saw the vet palpating Kitty’s lower abdomen.
“It’s always the kidneys in older cats,” said Jeanne over the weekend. At that point, Kitty had just come home from five days in the hospital, getting IV fluids, and enduring the constant barking of the neighboring dogs. And yes, he had cost us just under a thousand bucks.
We had to spend it, of course. But I can tell you now—we might as well have taken a vacation, instead. Despite Raf’s optimism—based on the statement by the vet that Kitty might last another two years—I don’t think this cat’s gonna be around long.
So he’s in the back bedroom now—isolated so we can see if he urinates and give him the diet he needs. And I puzzled this morning when I was feeding him, how strange life worked. I had a job, I had an office, I had a place to be on Monday mornings. And now? I was alone with an old, feeble cat—a cat we will one day put in the red carrying case, and head weeping—as I am now—for the vet…
…one last time. 

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